I'm The Price I Pay...

Chasen - Castaway

I Feel Destruction Running Hard Through My Veins
But I See Redemption Rushing My Way
My Victories Are Bittersweet, And Now I Can Tell
The Only Place My Plans Have Led Me Is Right Where I Fell

I'm Overboard, Too Far From Shore
A Castaway Trying To Make It Home
I Catch My Breath To Save Myself But I Can't
In My Sight You Were Just In Time
I Feel You Now You're By My Side
And I Know You Gave Me, A Gift Of A Second Chance

I Had A Dream Of A Life Of My Own
And I Had A Place That I Thought Was My Home
But Now I See I Just Can't Have It Any Other Way
It's All Or Nothing, Do Or Die And I'm The Price I Pay Because

I'm Overboard, Too Far From Shore
A Castaway Trying To Make It Home
I Catch My Breath To Save Myself But I Can't
In My Sight You Were Just In Time
I Feel You Now You're By My Side
And I Know You Gave Me, A Gift Of A Second Chance
A Second Chance

A Second Chance I Won't Forget
A Second Life I Won't Regret
A Second Wind To Brave This Night
A Second More To Make It Right

I'm Overboard, Too Far From Shore
A Castaway Trying To Make It Home
I Catch My Breath To Save Myself But I Can't
In My Sight You Were Just In Time
I Feel You Now You're By My Side
And I Know You Gave Me, A Gift Of A Second Chance

A Gift Of A Second Chance
I'm A Castaway, With A Gift Of A Second Chance

Make It Through...

Life isn't easy. It's really hard. It really hurts sometimes. Most of it makes very little sense. But that's nothing new and it's nothing profound. I'm just being reminded of it all. And reminded of how easy it is to want to give up and give in. That's exactly what I've been doing. Of course that never really works. Nothing ever really goes away simply because you chose to ignore it. You've got to face it. Walk right up to that giant and look him in the eye. Walk through the rain. There is hope. There is help. It's coming. Don't give up. Please, don't give up. I have got to remind myself every single day that God is bigger and God is stronger and He is my strength and He is my help. I'm going to make it through. Jesus truly IS the only name that will pull me though. Hold on.

Hold On - Rapture Ruckus

You Gotta Hold On

Help Is Coming

You Gotta Hold On

You're Going To Make It Through The Rain

Through The Rain Through The Pain

Through The Fire And Flame

The Same Name I Cling To

The Same Name That Remains Forever

The Name Above All Names

Above Death And The Grave

The Name That Cures Cancer

And Gives Strength To The Lame

The Same Name That Came And Shattered My Chains

The Same Name That Will Come And Do The Same Again For You

He's Going To Come Through

Yes It's True

Jesus The Only Name That Will Pull You Through

You Gotta Hold On

Help Is Coming

You Gotta Hold On

You're Going To Make It Through The Rain

'Cause He Said He'll Never Leave Us

Nor Forsake Us Man And That's The Only

Word You Need To Hold To

And You'll Never Be Lonely Homie

I Know I Ain't The Only Person Out There Hurting

Who's Flirted With Thought Of Ending It All

But Been Averted And I Know So Many Out There Who Have Had It Much Harder

They Got No Food In Their Bellies

Got No Mothers Or Fathers

So Many Questions Out There That Need Answers To But Even If It Comes Down To The Final Hour

Man He'll Still Come Through

You Gotta Hold On

Help Is Coming

You Gotta Hold On

You're Going To Make It Through The Rain

If You're Waiting For A Miracle

You Gotta Hold On

You Gotta Make It Through The Rain

Through The Rain

Through The Flame

You Are The Name Above Every Name

Jesus The Name Above All Names

The World Has Plans For My Demise...

Underdog - Audio Adrenaline

"...Which Leaves Me
Down On My Knees
Back To The Place I
Should Have Started From

Been Beat Up
Been Broken Down
Nowhere But Up
When You're Face Down
On The Ground..."

And That's All That Matters To Me...

I'm FREE! :) 

God's love has set me free! NOTHING else matters! This world, it's shallowness, the 'stuff', all of it...will be gone in the blink of an eye! But I am LOVED, really LOVED, by the one who made the stars...and so are you! What is better than that? Could anything else EVER come close to that? 

God, Your love IS all that matters to me!

All That Matters - Addison Road

I May Never Be The One That Gets A Second Glance
I May Never Be The One They Call The Prettiest
But That’s Alright With Me

And Maybe I Don't Follow Every Crazy Passion
Spend All My Time Trying To Get A Good Reaction
But That’s Ok With Me

This World Is Like A Trampoline
High And Low No In Between
Jumping At The Chance To Please
Everyone But That’s Not Me

Cause All That Matters Is
All That Matters Is
I Know Your Love Has Set Me Free
And That’s All That Matters To Me

Cause All That Matters Is
All That Matters Is
I Know Your Love Has Set Me Free
And That’s All That Matters To Me

Some People Tell Me To Step Out And Do My Own Thing
And Others Say I Got To Blend In Just To Be The Same
And Stop Being Me

But This Shallow World Is No Longer What I'm Made Of
I've Been Changed By Grace
I've Been Saved By Love
What More Do I Need

All That Matters Is
All That Matters Is
I Know Your Love Has Set Me Free
And That's All That Matters To Me

My Life Comes From The One
Who Made The Stars And Brought The Sun
He Loves Me More Than These
So I Don't Need Another Identity

All That Matters Is
All That Matters Is
I Know Your Love Has Set Me Free
And That's All That Matters To Me

What Good Do 'What If's' Do...

Relient K - Forget And Not Slow Down

How Many Times
Can I Push It Aside
Is It Time I Befriended All The Ghosts Of All The Things That Haunt Me Most
So They Leave Me Alone
Move On With My Life
Be Certain The Steps Of Left And Right Don't Fight The Direction Of Upright

I'd Rather Forget And Not Slow Down
Than Gather Regret For The Things I Can't Change Now
If I Become What I Can't Accept
Resurrect The Saint From Within The Wretch
Pour Over Me And Wash My Hands Of It

It's Time To Decide
Which Is Out Of My Mind
Cause It'll Be Me Unless I Put Some Thoughts To Rest And Leave Some Faults Behind
I'll Watch The Glint In My Eye
Shine Off The Spring In My Step
And Could Be Blinding Depending On The Amount Of You That I Reflect

Cause I Could Spend My Life Just Trying To Sift Through
What I Could've Done Better But What Good Do What If's Do

There's Something I Should Tell You Now

I'd Rather Forget And Not Slow Down
Than Gather Regret For The Things I Can't Change Now
If I Become What I Can't Accept
Resurrect The Saint From Within The Wretch
Pour Over Me And Wash My Hands

Pour Over Me And Wash My Hands

Cause I Could Spend My Life Just Trying To Sift Through
What I Could've Done Better But What Good Do What If's Do

I'm Standing On A Ledge Waving My Hands...

This is seriously my life right now...to a T!   
Desperate - Fireflight 

 Seek And You Will Find, They Say

But I've Been Looking Everyday
For A Way Past This Wall That's In Front Of My Face
I'm On Hands And Knees Searching For My Faith

I Know There's So Much At Stake
But I Don't Know If I Can Take One More Pat On The Back Saying I'll Be Okay
Can't You See Me Whole Life Is In Disarray

You've Got Me Desperate

I Know You Hear Me
Would You Give Me A Sign
Reel Me In Before I've Fallen In Line
You've Put Me On A Path I Don't Understand
I'm Standing On A Ledge Waving My Hands

You've Got Me Desperate, Do You See Me
Desperate, Do You Hear Me
Desperate, Will You Help Me
You've Got Me Desperate

I Know You're My Only Hope
The Only One Who Truly Knows How It Feels, What It's Like When It All Starts To Fall
You're The One I Can Trust Who Hears When I Call

You've Got Me Desperate.

I Know You Hear Me
Would You Give Me A Sign
Reel Me In Before I've Fallen In Line
You've Put Me On A Path I Don't Understand
I'm Standing On A Ledge Waving My Hands

You've Got Me Desperate, Do You See Me
Desperate, Do You Hear Me
Desperate, Will You Help Me
You've Got Me Desperate

Some Things I'll Never Figure Out
Until I Let Hope Erase My Doubt

You've Got Me Desperate

I Know You Hear Me
Would You Give Me A Sign
Reel Me In Before I've Fallen In Line
You've Put Me On A Path I Don't Understand
I'm Standing On A Ledge Waving My Hands

You've Got Me Desperate, Do You See Me
Desperate, Do You Hear Me
Desperate, Will You Help Me
You've Got Me Desperate

If I Could Tell The World Just One Thing...

Hands - Jewel

If I Could Tell The World Just One Thing
It Would Be That We're All Okay
And Not To Worry 'Cause Worry Is Wasteful
And Useless In Times Like These
I Won't Be Made Useless
I Won't Be Idle With Despair
I Will Gather Myself Around My Faith
For Light Does The Darkness Most Fear

My Hands Are Small, I Know
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
And I Am Never Broken

Poverty Stole Your Golden Shoes
It Didn't Steal Your Laughter
And Heartache Came To Visit Me
But I Knew It Wasn't Ever After
We'll Fight, Not Out Of Spite
For Someone Must Stand Up For What's Right
'Cause Where There's A Man Who Has No Voice
There Ours Shall Go Singing

My Hands Are Small I Know
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
I Am Never Broken

In The End Only Kindness Matters

I Will Get Down On My Knees, And I Will Pray

My Hands Are Small I Know
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
And I Am Never Broken
My Hands Are Small I Know
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own

And I Am Never Broken
We Are Never Broken
We Are God's Eyes
God's Hands
God's Mind
We Are God's Eyes
God's Hands
God's Heart
We Are God's Eyes
God's Hands
God's Eyes
We Are God's Hands
We Are God's Hands

You Are Bigger Than The Battle...

Fail Us Not - 1000 Generations 

Failure Doesn't Phase You. Worry Doesn't Win.
Lost Doesn't Leave You Afraid To Start Again.
Our Sin Doesn't Shock You.
Our Shame Doesn't Shame You At All.
Mistakes Do Not Move You.
Terror Doesn't Tame.
Death Doesn't Doom You To Life In The Grave.
Our Suffering Doesn't Scare You.
Our Secrets Won't Surprise You At All.
At All.

There Is Nothing Above You.
There Is Nothing Beyond You.
There Is Nothing That You Can't Do.
Whatever Will Come, We'll Rise Above.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
No Matter The War, Our Hope Is Secure.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
You Fail Us Not.

Hatred Doesn't Hide You.
Evil Doesn't Ail.
Despair Can't Disguise You And Tell You That You Fail.
Our Doubt Doesn't Daunt You.
Our Darkness Won't Defeat You At All.
At All. 

There Is Nothing Above You.
There Is Nothing Beyond You.
There Is Nothing That You Can't Do.
Whatever Will Come, We'll Rise Above.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
No Matter The War, Our Hope Is Secure.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
Whatever Will Come, We'll Rise Above.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
No, You Fail Us Not.

You Fail Us Not.

I Know...I'm Dreamin' Like A Child...

It's The Climb...

'Eh...I'm not above being cliché...and I love this song, so...yeah! ;)

The Climb - Miley Cyrus

I Can Almost See It
That Dream I’m Dreaming But
There’s A Voice Inside My Head Sayin’,
You’ll Never Reach It,
Every Step I’m Taking,
Every Move I Make Feels
Lost With No Direction
My Faith Is Shaking But I
Got To Keep Trying
Got To Keep My Head Held High


There’s Always Going To Be Another Mountain
I’m Always Going To Want To Make It Move
Always Going To Be An Uphill Battle,
Sometimes I'm Going To Have To Lose,
Ain’t About How Fast I Get There,
Ain’t About What’s Waiting On The Other Side
It’s The Climb

The Struggles I’m Facing,
The Chances I’m Taking
Sometimes They Might Knock Me Down But
No I’m Not Breaking
I May Not Know It
But These Are The Moments That
I’m Going To Remember Most Yeah
Just Got To Keep Going
And I,
I Got To Be Strong
Just Keep Pushing On,

Cause

There’s Always Going To Be Another Mountain
I’m Always Going To Want To Make It Move
Always Going To Be An Uphill Battle,
Sometimes I'm Going To Have To Lose,
Ain’t About How Fast I Get There,
Ain’t About What’s Waiting On The Other Side
It’s The Climb

There’s Always Going To Be Another MountainI’m Always Going To Want To Make It Move
Always Going To Be An Uphill Battle,
Somebody's Going To Have To Lose,
Ain’t About How Fast I Get There,
Ain’t About What’s Waiting On The Other Side

It’s The Climb

Keep On Moving
Keep Climbing
Keep The Faith Baby
It’s All About
The Climb
Keep The Faith

Breathe It In & Let It Go...

Enough To Let Me Go -- Switchfoot

Oh, I'm A Wandering Soul
I'm Still Walking The Line
That Leads Me Home Alone

All I Know
I Still Got Mountain To Climb
On My Own, On My Own

Do You Love Me Enough To Let Me Go?
To Let Me Follow Through
To Let Me Fall For You
Do You Love Me Enough To Let Me Go?

Back From The Dead Of Winter
Back From The Dead And All Our Leaves Are Dry
You're So Beautiful, Tonight

Back From The Dead We Went Through
Back From The Dead And Both Our Tongues Are Tied
You Look Beautiful Tonight

But Every Seed Dies Before It Grows

Breathe It In And Let It Go
Every Breath You Take Is Not Your To Own
It's Not Your To Hold
Do You Love Me Enough To Let Me Go?

At A Red Light, In The Sunshine...

It Ain't The Middle Of The Night...& It Ain't Even Raining Outside...It Ain't Exactly What I Had In Mind, For Goodbye...At A Red Light, In The Sunshine, On A Sunday...Nothin' To Say, Don't Even Try...Some Are Comin' Home, Some Are Leavin' Town, While My World's Crashin' Down...On A Sunday, In The Sunshine, At A Red Light...♥

Some Things...

Life has been a kind of rough lately and times like these make it easy to just retreat and be mad at the world, seriously! But, I know God has a plan...and even when my selfish flesh steps in and throws a big fat wrench in things...He ends up using it. Now, how can I not be thankful for that. The "crap" I've done and been through the last 23 years can and WILL be used for His glory. The moments I actually cling to that are the ones I experience the most peace and freedom!

And those of you who really know me know that music and lyrics are one of my "escapes"...so needless to say...the music has been BLARING the last few days! :) This song has been a favorite for a long time...and it's perfect right now! I'm not going to say it doesn't hurt, but...I really am "Thankful, For Every Break In My Heart, I'm Grateful, For Every Scar..." Because I've been here before and know all too well that I can't go backward...so I'll go forward and just keep learning.

Lessons Learned -- Carrie Underwood

There's Some Things That I Regret,
Some Words I Wish Had Gone Unsaid,
Some Starts,
That Had Some Better Endings,
Been Some Bad Times I've Been Through,
Damage I Cannot Undo.
Some Things,
I Wish I Could Do All All Over Again,
But It Don't Really Matter,
When Life Gets That Much Harder,
It Makes You That Much Stronger,
Oh, Some Pages Turned,
Some Bridges Burned,
But There Were,
Lessons Learned.

And Every Tear That Had To Fall From My Eyes,
And Everyday I Wondered How I'd Get Through The Night,
Every Change, Life Has Thrown Me,
I'm Thankful, For Every Break In My Heart,
I'm Grateful, For Every Scar,
Some Pages Turned,
Some Bridges Burned,
But There Were Lessons Learned.

There's Mistakes That I Have Made,
Some Chances I Just Threw Away,
Some Roads,
I Never Should Have Taken,
Been Some Signs I Didn't See,
Hearts That I Hurt Needlessly,
Some Wounds,
That I Wish I Could Have One More Chance To Mend,
But It Don't Make No Difference,
The Past Can't Be Rewritten,
You Get The Life You're Given,
Oh, Some Pages Turned,
Some Bridges Burned,
But There Were,
Lessons Learned.

And All The Things That Break You,
Are The Things That Make You Strong.
You Can't Change The Past,
Cause It's Gone.
And You Just Gotta Move On,
Because It's All
Lessons Learned.

What Can I Say...

What Can I Say -- Carrie Underwood

"The Space Between What Was Meant To Be & The Mess That It Turned Into...
It's Never Easy, It's Like Trying To Spin The World The Other Way...
What Can I Say..."

Anyway...

I want to dream big, crazy dreams! I want to stand on the promise that tomorrow is a new day...maybe even a better day! I want to love people with every bit of everything I have! Who cares if it hurts! I'm going to stand up for what I know is right and the things I believe in...as "small" as they may seem! And if all I can ever do is just that, then...why not! Yeah, maybe some people will look at me a little funny, or mistake my kindness for weakness, or just up and walk away from me...maybe! But, what if they don't! What if they dream big, crazy dreams of their own and wake up to a new day full of hope and stand strong on their beliefs and spend their lives loving the crap (yes, you read that right...) out of everyone they ever know...Yeah, that would be totally sweet, right?

So, I think I'm just going to sing, and dream, and love...anyway!

Anyway -- Martina McBride

You Can Spend Your Whole Life Building
Something From Nothin'
One Storm Can Come And Blow It All Away
Build It Anyway

You Can Chase A Dream
That Seems So Out Of Reach
And You Know It Might Not Ever Come Your Way
Dream It Anyway

God Is Great
But Sometimes Life Ain't Good
And When I Pray
It Doesn't Always Turn Out Like I Think It Should
But I Do It Anyway
I Do It Anyway

This World's Gone Crazy
It's Hard To Believe
That Tomorrow Will Be Better Than Today
Believe It Anyway

You Can Love Someone With All Your Heart
For All The Right Reasons
In A Moment They Can Choose To Walk Away
Love 'Em Anyway

God Is Great
But Sometimes Life Ain't Good
And When I Pray
It Doesn't Always Turn Out Like I Think It Should
But I Do It Anyway
Yea - I Do It Anyway

You Can Pour Your Soul Out Singing
A Song You Believe In
That Tomorrow They'll Forget You Ever Sang
Sing It Anyway
Yea, Sing It Anyway
Yeah, Yeah!

I Sing
I Dream
I Love Anyway