I'm Standing On A Ledge Waving My Hands...

This is seriously my life right now...to a T!   
Desperate - Fireflight 

 Seek And You Will Find, They Say

But I've Been Looking Everyday
For A Way Past This Wall That's In Front Of My Face
I'm On Hands And Knees Searching For My Faith

I Know There's So Much At Stake
But I Don't Know If I Can Take One More Pat On The Back Saying I'll Be Okay
Can't You See Me Whole Life Is In Disarray

You've Got Me Desperate

I Know You Hear Me
Would You Give Me A Sign
Reel Me In Before I've Fallen In Line
You've Put Me On A Path I Don't Understand
I'm Standing On A Ledge Waving My Hands

You've Got Me Desperate, Do You See Me
Desperate, Do You Hear Me
Desperate, Will You Help Me
You've Got Me Desperate

I Know You're My Only Hope
The Only One Who Truly Knows How It Feels, What It's Like When It All Starts To Fall
You're The One I Can Trust Who Hears When I Call

You've Got Me Desperate.

I Know You Hear Me
Would You Give Me A Sign
Reel Me In Before I've Fallen In Line
You've Put Me On A Path I Don't Understand
I'm Standing On A Ledge Waving My Hands

You've Got Me Desperate, Do You See Me
Desperate, Do You Hear Me
Desperate, Will You Help Me
You've Got Me Desperate

Some Things I'll Never Figure Out
Until I Let Hope Erase My Doubt

You've Got Me Desperate

I Know You Hear Me
Would You Give Me A Sign
Reel Me In Before I've Fallen In Line
You've Put Me On A Path I Don't Understand
I'm Standing On A Ledge Waving My Hands

You've Got Me Desperate, Do You See Me
Desperate, Do You Hear Me
Desperate, Will You Help Me
You've Got Me Desperate

If I Could Tell The World Just One Thing...

Hands - Jewel

If I Could Tell The World Just One Thing
It Would Be That We're All Okay
And Not To Worry 'Cause Worry Is Wasteful
And Useless In Times Like These
I Won't Be Made Useless
I Won't Be Idle With Despair
I Will Gather Myself Around My Faith
For Light Does The Darkness Most Fear

My Hands Are Small, I Know
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
And I Am Never Broken

Poverty Stole Your Golden Shoes
It Didn't Steal Your Laughter
And Heartache Came To Visit Me
But I Knew It Wasn't Ever After
We'll Fight, Not Out Of Spite
For Someone Must Stand Up For What's Right
'Cause Where There's A Man Who Has No Voice
There Ours Shall Go Singing

My Hands Are Small I Know
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
I Am Never Broken

In The End Only Kindness Matters

I Will Get Down On My Knees, And I Will Pray

My Hands Are Small I Know
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
And I Am Never Broken
My Hands Are Small I Know
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own
But They're Not Yours, They Are My Own

And I Am Never Broken
We Are Never Broken
We Are God's Eyes
God's Hands
God's Mind
We Are God's Eyes
God's Hands
God's Heart
We Are God's Eyes
God's Hands
God's Eyes
We Are God's Hands
We Are God's Hands

If There's Ever An Answer...It's More Love...

Little things like this can always make my day! :)

A Few Poems From Wilda...

Wilda was always writing in her notebooks...and I was lucky enough to have her share some of her beautiful poems with me. I'd love to share them with you! Her words and her spirit bring a smile to my heart. Love you, Wilda! You will certainly be missed! RIP sweet, sweet friend!

“God Is Great”
He, is great, in His mighty acts.
He, is great, in His divine love towards us.
He, is great, in making crooked pathways straight.
He, is the great physician who knows all our worries and fears.
He, even sees our tears inside and out.
He, knows our human frame,
And all types of pain.
Each and every day – God is great.
Because He is the creator of human kind,
He sees to it that a way is made.
All we have to do is ask, believe, and receive.
Then receive our blessings in the flesh by faith.
And that is in Jesus’ name.

Wilda Bivins Miller
06-17-2008

 

“Through Jesus’ Shed Blood”God is angry with the wicked every day.
But in His love He will save us.
It is by God’s mercy we are not consumed!
By His grace that we have a good relationship through His Son.
You cannot love God if you don’t love the human race.
All creation is flesh indeed,
With a soul that will live on,
In one of two eternal homes:
That is in heaven or in hell.
Without Christ you are bound to go downward,
For those who are born again goes upward.
And this is God’s plan:
That none parish without a relationship through Jesus’ shed blood.
All sins are forgiven except one,
And that is blaspheming against the Holy Ghost.

Wilda Bivins Miller
07-24-2008

“Those Who Are Born Again”
When you face life’s difficulties go to God your father in prayer.
While you are living and before you pass
Make sure your sins are covered by Christ’s shed blood.
You need not to die in your sins
Christ paid the price for your soul’s salvation instead.
You never need to fear what man can do to you,
Rather reference God to the highest degree you can
Always acknowledge God in all your ways.
And He will direct your path.
And when you get to heaven,
You will not be put to shame!
There are victories throughout this life.
In Jesus Christ out Savior,
For those who are born again.

Wilda Bivins Miller
07-24-2008

“Daily Blessings”
The clouds cover the sky lines
The sun often refuses to run and hide
The wind dies down to a calm demeanor
The birds still chirps their praises to God on high
There is spiritual peace in His children’s mind
There are still victories ahead for those who are born again
Live for God the best you can
And God will do the rest!
Despite what others say or do
And God almighty – through Jesus his Son is our judge in the end.

Wilda Bivins Miller
07-24-2008

“God’s A Heavenly Father”
God is going to look for his spiritual servants’ needs, wants, and desires.
In the spirit and also in the flesh.
If you have hope only in this life that is without Christ,
You are of all man most miserable.
Without Christ you die in your sins,
Your own righteousness is as filthy rags in God’s sight.
Without having your birth in the spirit you cannot stand for God or Christ
Study and read and live for God according to His word the best you can
He will do the rest.
I, mean He is, the heavenly Father!
Amen!

Wilda Bivins Miller
07-25-2008

“The Heart”
The heart of many shall wax away
When all the signs of human and divine love is gone
And it will feel as though you walk alone
Trouble seems to fill in the holes
Yet God sends the rains on the just and unjust, the saved and the unsaved.
You need not to let love period slip away
Just continue to pray in Jesus’ name for strength to love
And live by God’s word each and everyday
In the heart of spiritual man.
When human love fails – the love of God extends to all.

Wilda Bivins Miller
07-27-2008

RIP Sweet Friend...

I literally just wrote last night about how much I missed some of my friends...and Wilda was one of those friends...(Missing My Friends)


"Wilda! Wilda! Wilda! I LOVE this lady. Sadly, she was the very first person I ever "lost". It was so hard to learn that sometimes you will see someone twice a week every week forever and then all of the sudden they are gone. I looked forward to seeing her every time I was out! I loved her amazing heart and spirit. She had tons of notebooks full of beautiful poems and kids' Sunday school lessons and blueprints for a home she hoped to one day have. She'd draw and write while she sat on the sidewalk in front of a Mexican restaurant selling items she had knitted, been given, or found in the trash. She would sit there ALL day long in the hot sun and then return to her spot on the front porch of an abandoned house every night just to get some sleep and do it all over again. Unfortunately, her "husband" was a bad piece of the equation and was a huge roadblock to Wilda getting on her feet...but as strong a woman as she was, Lewis was her weakness and she couldn't see that he was walking all over her. I pray for Wilda often...and even if I never see her again, there is no way I'll ever forget her!" 

Tonight I received word that Wilda passed away on July 22, 2009 after being struck by a car just off Washington St. and Emerson Ave. on the east side of Indianapolis. It's kind of of ironic how my words last night were..."Sadly, she was the very first person I ever "lost"." I guess that really rings true...up to this point, I've never had to face the death of a homeless friend. I think what breaks my heart the most is that no one knew about her death. But, there is no doubt that Wilda is at home with her heavenly father. This woman had such a beautifully strong faith...her love for the Lord just made her SHINE! So many people loved Wilda and she will continue to be missed. Rest in peace and God bless you sweet, sweet friend!

You Are Bigger Than The Battle...

Fail Us Not - 1000 Generations 

Failure Doesn't Phase You. Worry Doesn't Win.
Lost Doesn't Leave You Afraid To Start Again.
Our Sin Doesn't Shock You.
Our Shame Doesn't Shame You At All.
Mistakes Do Not Move You.
Terror Doesn't Tame.
Death Doesn't Doom You To Life In The Grave.
Our Suffering Doesn't Scare You.
Our Secrets Won't Surprise You At All.
At All.

There Is Nothing Above You.
There Is Nothing Beyond You.
There Is Nothing That You Can't Do.
Whatever Will Come, We'll Rise Above.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
No Matter The War, Our Hope Is Secure.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
You Fail Us Not.

Hatred Doesn't Hide You.
Evil Doesn't Ail.
Despair Can't Disguise You And Tell You That You Fail.
Our Doubt Doesn't Daunt You.
Our Darkness Won't Defeat You At All.
At All. 

There Is Nothing Above You.
There Is Nothing Beyond You.
There Is Nothing That You Can't Do.
Whatever Will Come, We'll Rise Above.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
No Matter The War, Our Hope Is Secure.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
Whatever Will Come, We'll Rise Above.
You Fail Us Not, You Fail Us Not.
No, You Fail Us Not.

You Fail Us Not.

Missing My Friends...

I've been thinking about so many of my friends lately...and how much I miss them! Just wanted to share a few of them with you. I can't tell you how many people I've met out on the streets that have truly touched my life...I promise they've given me more than I've ever given them!

This is Juan and Denise. They recently moved to West Virgina and I haven't heard from them since the afternoon I drove down to the Greyhound station to say goodbye. I'll admit, they both have their struggles and have broken my heart a couple times, but I just can't help but love them. I hope they are doing great and are able to use this fresh start and keep themselves off the streets. This is my buddy, Rodney. He is such a sweet man. I haven't seen him since this winter, but last I heard from him he was staying in an apartment with a friend...I hope that is still the case. If you met this man you would just want to give him a big hug! At least that's the way I always felt. We almost always cracked the Bible open and he would share his favorite verses with me and I would share mine with him. We had tons of good conversations and he was always full of questions. Another thing I love about Rodney was how much he loved to help people...he was always taking "new" guys under his wing and setting them up with a few blankets and a spot next to him on the sidewalk. I miss this guy! Oh, Mickey! I've written about Mickey more than once and I could write about this man all night. He is such a beautiful soul. His heath is getting worse and I've heard his spirits are following suit. I really need to make it a priority to go visit him. After being released from the hospital he was placed in housing...Praise the Lord! He has been such a light in my life. I honestly don't think I've ever heard the man complain about anything! I'm so, so, so thankful for Mickey! For those of you who know him..."Oy vey!" :)
Here are a few other posts about Mickey --> "Update On Mickey...", "Music To My Ears, Literally...", and "Our Beautiful Friend, Mickey..."
Wilda! Wilda! Wilda! I LOVE this lady. Sadly, she was the very first person I ever "lost". It was so hard to learn that sometimes you will see someone twice a week every week forever and then all of the sudden they are gone. I looked forward to seeing her every time I was out! I loved her amazing heart and spirit. She had tons of notebooks full of beautiful poems and kids' Sunday school lessons and blueprints for a home she hoped to one day have. She'd draw and write while she sat on the sidewalk in front of a Mexican restaurant selling items she had knitted, been given, or found in the trash. She would sit there ALL day long in the hot sun and then return to her spot on the front porch of an abandoned house every night just to get some sleep and do it all over again. Unfortunately, her "husband" was a bad piece of the equation and was a huge roadblock to Wilda getting on her feet...but as strong a woman as she was, Lewis was her weakness and she couldn't see that he was walking all over her. I pray for Wilda often...and even if I never see her again, there is no way I'll ever forget her!

Off The Streets...

Hey guys! One of my good friends, Eric, who's been on the streets for quite sometime got himself an apartment this past weekend! Praise the Lord! He is, however, in need of almost everything to get him started. A friend of mine put together a list of what he needs most...so, here it is:

Dining Room Table Or Card Table & Chairs
Small Desk
Plates Bowls, Both For Eating And Storage
Towels & Washcloths
13 Gallon Trash Can
Dish Drainer
Cleaning Products
Laundry Basket
Light Bulbs (40w)
Broom And Dustpan 

If you can help with any of these items or have anything else you feel like giving, that would be awesome! Just shoot me an e-mail or give me a call. I'm so happy for Eric! He was one of the first guys I met doing outreach and have gotten to know him more and more over the last several months...He is currently in college and really trying hard to turn his situation around. I'm so proud of him and so thankful that he has been blessed with this apartment. Please keep Eric in your prayers...

I Know...I'm Dreamin' Like A Child...

Thank You...To...You...

So...I walked out my back door this morning...and......there sat 40 pounds of dog food and 15 pounds of cat food!
Um...Thank you, kind soul! I appreciate you...and so do my furry little children! :)

Let's Show 'Em The Love That We've Recieved...

It's been a little over a week since a man from around my neighborhood was stabbed and killed. (Here is one of the news stories) It happened just steps away from where some of my good friends live...I love my DAT House friends so much and their desire to share the love of Christ with everyone, period. They recently mailed a letter to the man who is responsible for the murder of Dwayne. In the letter, they "have written boldly about grace and how God offers it to him." Along with them, I am asking that you would pray that his heart would be softened and he would be prepared to hear truth that will so radically change his life! Also, pray for Dwayne's family and friends...and my friends at the DAT House who are stepping out into this neighborhood to simply share the love and truth of our awesome God!

It's The Climb...

'Eh...I'm not above being cliché...and I love this song, so...yeah! ;)

The Climb - Miley Cyrus

I Can Almost See It
That Dream I’m Dreaming But
There’s A Voice Inside My Head Sayin’,
You’ll Never Reach It,
Every Step I’m Taking,
Every Move I Make Feels
Lost With No Direction
My Faith Is Shaking But I
Got To Keep Trying
Got To Keep My Head Held High


There’s Always Going To Be Another Mountain
I’m Always Going To Want To Make It Move
Always Going To Be An Uphill Battle,
Sometimes I'm Going To Have To Lose,
Ain’t About How Fast I Get There,
Ain’t About What’s Waiting On The Other Side
It’s The Climb

The Struggles I’m Facing,
The Chances I’m Taking
Sometimes They Might Knock Me Down But
No I’m Not Breaking
I May Not Know It
But These Are The Moments That
I’m Going To Remember Most Yeah
Just Got To Keep Going
And I,
I Got To Be Strong
Just Keep Pushing On,

Cause

There’s Always Going To Be Another Mountain
I’m Always Going To Want To Make It Move
Always Going To Be An Uphill Battle,
Sometimes I'm Going To Have To Lose,
Ain’t About How Fast I Get There,
Ain’t About What’s Waiting On The Other Side
It’s The Climb

There’s Always Going To Be Another MountainI’m Always Going To Want To Make It Move
Always Going To Be An Uphill Battle,
Somebody's Going To Have To Lose,
Ain’t About How Fast I Get There,
Ain’t About What’s Waiting On The Other Side

It’s The Climb

Keep On Moving
Keep Climbing
Keep The Faith Baby
It’s All About
The Climb
Keep The Faith